It always hurts....it's never easier...guess it never will be

Dani

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Dear Sammi,

You were always my girl even though I was never your human. In fact when daddy was around, I was chopped liver as far as you were concerned. Nevertheless, I still loved you with all my heart.

I remember when momma brought you home from the humane society. I was so excited. You were our first dog that I could ever remember. I remember coming home from school with my brother, finding no Sammi girl and us looking at each other thinking "oh crap she's gone." You were quite the little escape artist. We spent many afternoons after school looking for you. The gates and doors were always shut or locked so as near as we could tell, you were either climbing the fence or jumping it. Or both. I remember seeing you do both on different occasions. Then daddy put in the dog door and you became a very good girl. There was no more chasing after you in the afternoons after school, scouring the neighborhood trying to figure out where you went. From that point on you were there everyday whenever any of us would come home, waiting at the gate and then announcing to the world how happy you were that her people were home.

We never really knew what breed you would fall under. The humane society said lab x bull terrier cross. I woulda sworn you had vizla in there somewhere, and who knows what you were. I do know that you were one helluva robin catcher. Those swarms of robins would come through in the fall and spring and invade our yard, eating all our worms and bugs, draining the bird bath there were so many piled in there and you'd go out and later I'd see you trotting around the yard with your prize. It was funny to me. You'd catch squirrels and robins, parade around the entire yard a couple of times and then bury the poor critters and that would be the end of it.

I also do believe that the buzzards would purposefully soar above our back yard. I think they got as much kick out of you chasing them around, head up looking at them, running in circles with them as they rode the air currents and barking at them, as I did. I PROMISE the time that you ran into the tree while you were doing that that I was laughing WITH you, not at you. No matter how old you got, no matter how slow you got, no matter how your hips began failing you, you were never too old to tell the buzzards to get out of your air space.

I loved watching you and my boy Kenzie chase each other around the yard playing with each other. When you were young and spry the two of you would just tear up the place with your antics. Then when Drake joined the family, I remember your looks of consternation that he wouldn't play when you tried to get him to. It's not your fault. He was never allowed to play and never learned to play. But it tickled me that you still tried. And there came a time when he did play a little with y'all and the three of you tearing around the yard was a hoot. Though you were getting old and so you had to rethink how you'd play. You were one fast little girl when you were young but age was not kind. But you were smart and great at figuring out where the boys would be and then run there as fast as you could to get them.

About six months or so before I left for Tallahassee, Maxwell showed up. Maxwell was a bitty little kitten that someone had tossed out in our yard. That little bitty kitten must've thought he was a tiger because I remember as soon as he figured out how to get into the yard, there were four big dogs hauling butt from all over the yard and converging on him. He just stood there looking bored while the four of you sniffed him over. Then it took watching you dogs go in the doggie door just a couple times and that was that. He was in and out of the house like the rest of the dogs. At first it seemed like you didn't care for him, especially as you got older. Maybe that's the truth but I think it was all for show. Regardless of how you felt about him, the two of you figured out some outstanding racket. You LOVED his cat food but daddy wouldn't share it with you much. As you well knew, Maxwell is a picker at his food. Eat a little, walk away, eat a little, walk away. We learned that we had to pick the bowl up or one of you dogs would finish his food for him. When he was hungry he'd yowl and a little handful of food would be put in his bowl and the bowl put down. Well I don't know what your agreement was with the little furball was but you and he had all us humans figured out. He'd yowl, we'd put food down, he'd eat a little (like a bite) and then walk away, leaving it all for you. But we didn't care. You were eating so that was a very good thing. I hope that he was getting something good when we weren't looking in return for getting you extra food.

In the end it's best that you went now, what with daddy heading off to WA state in a few weeks for his new job. That was a fear I had, that he would have to make a very difficult decision before he moved. Your hips were failing you. Your hearing was pretty much gone. I was not really sure about your eyesight. You got to the point as you got old that you no longer cared for going for car rides. In fact they scared you for some reason. So moving to a new state some 3000 miles away would've been incredibly hard on you.

I hope to someday see you again sweet girl. I'll bring you pockets full of cat food. Just for you.

I hope there are lots and lots of birds for you to chase.........

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So sorry to hear Dani.

You are correct- it always hurts and is never easy.

Time will ease the pain, but fortunately doesn't erase the memories.

Best of luck,

Jon
 
Sorry for your loss. It sounds like Sammi had a long and happy life.
It's hard to even know what to say. No, it never gets easier.

Take care,
Tim
 
Dani,
So sorry for your loss but as you reminisced about life with Sammi, a smile somehow found its way to my face. She gave you so much and your life has been made better by it.
Al
 
Sorry to hear you lost an old friend. I am sure Drake will give you a little comforting.
 
Overall, my wife loves her job. Your words remind me that there is one aspect that she dreads, particularly when it is a dog she knows well and likes.

Karen and I would like to offer you both our most heartfelt condolences. On November 10th we made the decision to put Dugan down. His legacy was nearly thirteen years of memories punctuated by grouse, pheasants, ducks and geese; memories that will remain to remind us why life is worth sharing with a companion that always offers "shelter from the storm" by their mere presence in our homes.

When Dugan was two, a friend and I had broken-off from the main group to push down a standing corn strip for pheasants. It had started to rain, prompting most of our party of hunters to turn back for the shelter of the pod of trucks. Eric said, "Let's push this cover out, since we aren't going to get very much wetter!" Okay. Dugan put a rooster up on Eric's side about a quarter of the way down the corn rows. Bang! Dead bird. I yelled, "Back!" to release him to make the retrieve, since I could not see him. I saw Eric bend down to receive the bird and then start walking again, after sliding it into his vest. About fifty yards later, I asked him if the dog was still working in front of him on his side of the corn strip. He said, "No, he brought that bird back and then headed your way, I thought he was hunting in front of you!" A handful of seconds later, well out of gun range, we watched three hens pop out of the end of the corn strip. I laid on the whistle long and hard to recall my errant mutt! Sure enough,he came slinking back to me down a corn row. I bitched him out major, prior releasing him with the twice loudly repeated reminder to "hunt close", all the while holding eye contact with my skulking dog. As we moved through the dripping cornstalks another fifty yards, he broke out into the open stubble looping back to my right and slightly behind me. I could see his tale going hard, so I knew he was on a bird. I had enough time to turn and shift my weight onto my back foot, before he pounced onto a little tuft of corn stalks, like a fox mousing in a field; blowing a rooster out of cover I would have sworn wasn't big enough to hold a bird. Jip-shot range on a quartering bird. Bang! Dead bird. Another rooster jumped on my gun's report a little further to my right; out a bit, but still in range. Bang! When Dugan had finished retrieving both birds to hand, I reminded him of the "value" of hunting close. We both knew all was forgiven. We closed out the cover strip with another rooster that jumped wild on Eric's side. As we were walking back down the farm lane toward the distant cluster of trucks, windshield wipers working hard to preserve their view of our soggy progress, I must have had a pretty sour look on my face. "Rick, you know, I think Dugan was just doing us a favor by blowing those hens out of the way so they wouldn't be a distraction", Eric happily offered! I looked at him and just shook my head before breaking into a smile, water steadily dripping off my hat brim. Over the years we hunted together, I swear that dog learned to read my mind! He would swing by in front of me while quartering through cover, make eye contact, and, if I didn't give him a hand signal to change his line direction, continue on.

I ble-off chasing a nice buck with my bow in the pre-rut, while we spent our last three days together revisiting some of those familiar covers nearby, prior saying our last good-bye. His urn is now next to Crockett's, among a cluster of pictures of younger days... While he would flush and retrieve them, he never thought much of woodcock. He was much like D.A. in that regard. He sure did love working pheasants!
 
Dani, You are right it always hurts and it will never get easier. Know you are in good company here and Sammi is in good company at the Rainbow Bridge. Corey, Jack, Bailey, Walker, Cooper, Gunner, Bridget and Max will all be there waiting.
 
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